"Happy birthday! May you continue to move forward, filled with confidence and courage, and achieve more dreams and goals in the new year." - "Spice and Wolf"
Since it's my birthday, I'll keep it simple and talk about myself. 📖
23 years old 🎂#
After midnight today, it means I have grown another year older. I have spent the past twenty-something years in confusion and still feel the same now, heh.
I have always been confused about my long-term goals or plans. Although I have a general direction, I haven't figured out the specific process. Even if I do, I always feel like something is missing, so I often give up thinking about it.
This may not be a good thing, as it means the whole process will be difficult to control, and in the end, it may deviate from my initial expectations or even go in the opposite direction.
In the past, I used to be frustrated by this. Why did I deviate so far from my planned goals step by step? When there were deviations or disappointments, I felt anxious and didn't follow the plan. 😶🌫️
Unfortunately, time never stops passing.
Time flies, your past keeps increasing, your future keeps decreasing, and the unknown possibilities become fewer and fewer, while the regrets that cannot be changed accumulate like mountains.
Do you understand?
But humans are not machines, and the environment we are in is not a machine. It is impossible to execute every step accurately, and many things cannot be achieved through hard work or following a set plan.
On my birthday in 2021, I wrote about "reconciliation with myself." Now I think I have achieved some of it. Regardless of whether there are variables or not, time keeps moving. Instead of worrying about some bad things, I'd rather keep myself busy. If my past self had already worked hard, no matter what the result is, I shouldn't blame my past self for trying.
Time is limited, and I want to spend as little time as possible in sadness.
Myself and Others 🧑🏻🤝🧑🏻#
I consider myself a relatively introverted person (at least in front of unfamiliar people 🐶). The circles I often communicate with are related to my environment. I remember that after entering high school, I had less contact with middle school friends, and after entering university, I often contacted university friends. Now, I often contact colleagues at work. Over the years, the number of people I have kept in touch with has been very few.
But this does not mean that I forget about certain people or things. They still hold a place in my heart as friends, but I often don't take the initiative to contact them. Everyone has their own lives. If one day we happen to meet on the street and can still greet each other with a smile, I think that would make me very happy.
If any big bosses need someone to guard their company's entrance, you can save a position for me. Wealth and prosperity, no
Finally#
As I write this, I realize that I have just written a personal account. But it doesn't matter. The meaning of things is always given by people, and this article does record me at 23 years old.
Dedicated to myself, wishing myself a happy birthday.